Now I get what they mean when they say "too good to be true"

I want this so badly. I dream about, I constantly think about it.

And you know what sucks?

I'm never going to get it.

I can hope for it, and keep telling myself theres a chance that it will happen, but in the end I'll just be faced with dissapointment.

I can try to change myself, I can try to improve myself. But in the end, I'm just not good enough.

Just because I want him, doesn't mean he'll want me.

I just have to accept it and move on.

Why is that so hard?